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Think of your home town. Or village. Everything feels so familiar. Like any place that you know from where you live, you have a memory. A story of a time you were there. 
For example I walk out of my front door. To the right there’s a little part of tiled flooring surrounded by walls on 3 sides of 4. Recently I remember sitting there with my friend and we were freezing cold and locked out. We just sat there and played on sim city until my parents came home. 

There’s a field that in the summer me and all my old friends would go to and just lie down. We’d play music and talk and just lie there.

There’s a specific part on a specific bridge that me and my friend from out of town sat on to watch a parade go by at Christmas.

There’s a little path that runs parallel to the park that I remember me and my bestfriend walking down on bonfire night in the dark screaming our heads off everytime we heard the sound of a fire work.

Right outside a block of offices not to far away from my house there’s a little place that me and my friends went to when she needed to take pictures of me for her photography.

I’ve lived in the same place my whole life (I’m now fifteen) there’s places and people and things that make us remember some of the best memories of our lives and just now thinking about all the unextraordanary mundane places right outside my door they all have a special meaning to me.

So anyway whilst driving three hours to my relatives house who we’ll be staying with for this week, I looked out my window and saw all these places and houses and I just wondered what it would be like if these were familiar and I had memories of these places. And Idk I just started to see all these places I was seeing and all the places back home in a new light. I know it’s a bit random but I just thought it was an important thought.

What are your favourite memories of places at your hometown?


Think of your home town. Or village. Everything feels so familiar. Like any place that you know from where you live, you have a memory. A story of a time you were there. 

For example I walk out of my front door. To the right there’s a little part of tiled flooring surrounded by walls on 3 sides of 4. Recently I remember sitting there with my friend and we were freezing cold and locked out. We just sat there and played on sim city until my parents came home. 

There’s a field that in the summer me and all my old friends would go to and just lie down. We’d play music and talk and just lie there.

There’s a specific part on a specific bridge that me and my friend from out of town sat on to watch a parade go by at Christmas.

There’s a little path that runs parallel to the park that I remember me and my bestfriend walking down on bonfire night in the dark screaming our heads off everytime we heard the sound of a fire work.

Right outside a block of offices not to far away from my house there’s a little place that me and my friends went to when she needed to take pictures of me for her photography.

I’ve lived in the same place my whole life (I’m now fifteen) there’s places and people and things that make us remember some of the best memories of our lives and just now thinking about all the unextraordanary mundane places right outside my door they all have a special meaning to me.

So anyway whilst driving three hours to my relatives house who we’ll be staying with for this week, I looked out my window and saw all these places and houses and I just wondered what it would be like if these were familiar and I had memories of these places. And Idk I just started to see all these places I was seeing and all the places back home in a new light. I know it’s a bit random but I just thought it was an important thought.

What are your favourite memories of places at your hometown?


Realising my fears…

Recently I’ve had a lot of choices. To choose between what I really want to do or not. And most times I choose no. I think I’ve realised that I’m a bit scared. Of stepping outside my comfort zone and of trying new things no matter how much joy I think it’ll bring me.

Next week I am going to stay with some family members and I’ve decided that while I’m there I’m going to try to, no matter what, to do things that scare me a little. I’m just going to say to myself ‘just try it. Say yes. Do it’ and wish me good luck!!! I’ll keep you posted!🌙

Getting an education 

In school today we were meant to be ‘thinking backwards’ and choosing which colleges and which college courses we need to choose in order to get into which university to do which job for the whole of the rest of our lives?! 
We had to list our five year plan of where we see ourselves in year 1 all the way through to year 5. And all around me I could see people writing. And I had nothing. 

I decided though that’s it’s okay and I don’t need to know. Like not right now anyway. 

We then had to write our interests and our talents. Again mine were really quite shit. Makeup, animals, health& wellbeing, poetry, photography, writing and as for my talents/qualities. Well they were awful; makeup, people person, creative, moral values. 

And I just thought like what even am I.  Like I have no goals, short term or longterm. I don’t know what I want to do with my life. I only know one thing; I want to be happy. 

And that’s okay, I think.

Cute things to do with bae

  • play video games
  • sit on the curb looking at the stars
  • lie in a field talking
  • lie on the floor listening to rock music
  • movie marathon
  • do each others makeup
  • shopping
  • cinema
  • spotify and chill
  • netflix and chill
  • youtube and chill
  • photoshoot day
  • meal out at restaurant
  • go to the gym
  • sit and eat scran in the park and just talk
  • do art together
  • take goals matching calvins pictures
  • go to a rave

21/01/17 • 22/01/17

Tears run messily down my damp face forming pools on my pillows,blankets, my skin,hit with hundreds of water droplets. Bullets. Whispered words melt away into the silence. A message that’s travelled who knows how far to be heard in another world. But maybe not. Screams of sadness rip through the night up into the sky. Into the heavens, or just into the air. Pools and pools. Bullets. Unsaid words, forgotten forever. What I know I should have told you plunges coldly into my heart. That which I should have said but didn’t to save two people from tears. ‘I love you’

A list of things I want to do…


Grow hair out long and natural

But converse

Take Polaroids

Explore buildings

Leave poems and notes around

Eat natural based foods

Lie (on the beach) looking up at the stars

Take a nightime dip in either a pool or the sea

Go on walks by myself into nature and sit and paint/write/read/take pictures.

Buy a backpack

Be my own source of happiness

Smoke

Get drunk

Say thankyou instead of sorry

Be spontaneous 

Take sunset/sunrise photos

Go on holidays with friends

Play with coloured smoke grenades and sparklers on the beach

Dance in a field

Order takeaways

Go to a concert

Go see live music

Wake up in a white bed covered in sunlight

Go on a mountain hike

Self pierce

Go to a fashion show

Mess about in a shopping trolley

Write a book

Fall in love

Take goals pictures with boyfriend

Switching off..

So for real i tried this. I went with out social media for a week. Lost all my streaks. Didnt check my instagram. Nothing for a whole week.

So at the end of the week how do i feel? I dont care about keeoing my streaks anymore tbh. I used to have loads with people i didnt even know or actually speak to in real life. (If you don’t know a streak is on snapchat a number that appears next to a person and the number tells you how many days in a row you and that person have spoken for. You don’t even have to have a real conversation. Most people just send a blank screen twice a day and that’s usually enough to keep the streak going). So anyway I now only have 2 streaks. One with my bestfriend and one with my boyfriend and I find I spend a lot less time actually on snapchat.

Now onto instagram, after a week without it I now find I don’t care about sticking to a strict feed theme. I just post what ever whenever and just hope it looks nice. I don’t post as many selfies and I don’t take as many selfies. 

I also have found I don’t even check the likes anymore. I post what I want to post because I like it. Not because I want other people to like it.

I also have found I don’t spend as much time looking at other people’s pictures thinking about how much better their lives are than mine because I really don’t care. 

And all of this is because I logged out for 1 week! 

Living a bit more

Sometimes I just think about something I really want to do and instead of just doing it in the moment I think oh I’ll do it another time.

But thus is what I’ve been trying to stop because I think that’s not what I want to be like. I want to be spontaneous. Living by the moment and doing all the things I’ve always wanted to do. 

This is a really awful picture but Idk I’d just always wanted to so I got in one and my friend pushed me and it was a good laugh.

Also we decided we hadn’t been to the cinema in a while so we watched sing and then straight after we watched the Lego Batman movie. We parkoured from the standard seats to the premium ones and tbh they were just as comfy as the standard ones just a bit bigger.

So yeah basically I just wrote myself a little list of all the little things I wanted to do and then make sure I would actually be able to do them and ngl I felt a little sense of joy and achievement everytime I did something that was on my list.

Geordie Shore Inspired

Clothes and Accessories.

  • Figure hugging clothes eg. body con dresses, tight tops
  • Onesies in chill time
  • Fake nails are common on the girls. French tip, neon, nude, semi see through, dark
  • The darker the better. Orange is attractive. Fake tan regularly to keep the glow.
  • Hoopy earrings, metallic looking watches, sparkly rings.
  • The lads like to show their muscles off as much as possible so tight tops or vest style tops.

Hair and Makeup.

  • The main hair colours are either blonde, ombre,or dark. Very long usually extensions.
  • Not very many hairstyles are used, down, mid pony, half up, messy bun, messy low pony, usually straight but occasionally wavy or even curly but rarely natural.
  • The lasses with brown eyes sometimes like to use pale blue contacts.
  • They all (including the lads) like to look bronzed, Instant or overnight tanner.

Attitudes and Behaviours.

  • Every night is about having a good night. Getting mortal and having a wicked time.
  • Lads can be just as good mates as the girls but sistas before mistas.
  • The girls all seem to have a “don’t mess with me” sort of attitude.
  • Constant competition with the lads to see who can pull more girls.
  • Kick offs need to be resolved. If you’re in the wrong, own up and apologise.
  • It’s okay not to wear much makeup during the daytime as you can get dolled up when you go out an that.
  • Not really about relationships, more about flirting around and pulling different people.
  • Inappropriate jokes are relevant. Always
  • I’ve also noticed that they use their hands a lot when they talk.
  • Every girl has a lad. Do not go near someone else’s lad or kickoffs will happen.