In school today we were meant to be ‘thinking backwards’ and choosing which colleges and which college courses we need to choose in order to get into which university to do which job for the whole of the rest of our lives?!
We had to list our five year plan of where we see ourselves in year 1 all the way through to year 5. And all around me I could see people writing. And I had nothing.
I decided though that’s it’s okay and I don’t need to know. Like not right now anyway.
We then had to write our interests and our talents. Again mine were really quite shit. Makeup, animals, health& wellbeing, poetry, photography, writing and as for my talents/qualities. Well they were awful; makeup, people person, creative, moral values.
And I just thought like what even am I. Like I have no goals, short term or longterm. I don’t know what I want to do with my life. I only know one thing; I want to be happy.
And that’s okay, I think.